I usually become creative when pressure sets in, creativity in anything but design. Mostly stresses from work and review usually get the best of me but not in a way that it causes me to snap or to be overly-emotional (or maybe I did cry once out of helplessness and pressure) about the trivial things. Instead, my brain cells suddenly gets busy working on the non-essentials -- things that have totally nothing to do with what I am supposed to be focusing my energy on. Or I can say stress makes my brain bone dry but toppled with pressure I would instantly find a plump, ripe and fresh part of it waiting to be squeezed.
Like for example these past few months I've been busy reviewing for an exam and as THE date approaches so is pressure. Suddenly my creative juices make me do stuff that I've never thought before of doing or I stopped doing. Or should I say I would condition myself to do something first before dealing with the more important stuff, that is reviewing. One pre-requisite to reviewing is cleaning and decorating my room. (I thought it would really be helpful if I will create a sanctuary on my own where I can spend the time on alone). I've never cleaned my room for months. I haven't actually slept on my bed in my room I think for almost a year now. Instead of hitting the books and reviewers a strong invisible force pushes me to tidy the space a little bit, throw away the papers piling up underneath and behind my desk, segregating the still usable stuff from the not. All in all I threw away an ergo chair, 3 plastic bags of artsy-fartsy things, and a kilo of illustration boards. It cleared up some space a little in my room which delighted Mama. And in the process of cleaning I saw my old stack of swatches (sample materials for design finishes) including this 'book' of expensive and imported upholstery fabrics. Seeing it sparked some inspiration. I thought how could I just throw away something so expensive? So I decided to make a tapestry out of it. Good thing the fabrics are in uniform sizes making it easier to compose and to sew. I even got mama to help me do it! Though it's still a process on going and it's something I wouldn't do in such a normal situation. And there's another one. I was suppose to browse through the net for the paintings and painters for my review. I saw my skype photo and it has been my photo for a week now (It's my habit changing it a day or so) so I decided to make a self-portrait of me in the computer which again I would never thought of doing under normal circumstances.
Is it wrong? Maybe it is. I am wasting my energy with the insignificant things. Though now I'm thinking, maybe it's my brain's way of coping with the pressure. I cannot force my brain to work if it already is dead tired from all the usual stuff no matter how important it is. A coping mechanism that helps my brain bounce back to the right track, or so I say..
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