Tangled

At this part of the movie I said, "Shucks, Flynn did die after all." But then it hit me, really hard.

I'm watching a fairy tale! Of course he'll be alive! Am I stupid or what? I just laughed at myself after.

Kimchi

I used Chinese cabbage and cucumber and I omitted the pear or cornstarch/flour in the ingredients. Just add the amount of dried chilli/pepper according to your taste. This also contains fish sauce (it just wasn't shown in the pictures). Best to leave it at room temperature for at least 1 day before refrigerating. The longer you leave it at room temperature, the faster the fermentation process.

My sister went to Korea and said the kimchi we normally make at home isn't so different!

Broccoli and Cheese at Rack's

Cha Soba at Zensho

December Wallpaper

Chocolate drink

Center Piece

Sunset Hundreds of Feet Above Ground

On my way back to Manila from Cebu.

Takoyaki! （たこ焼）

This is definitely on the top of my must-try list when I visit Japan.

Horikita Maki （掘り北真希）

To me, the most beautiful Japanese woman. ~^n^~

Jpop vs. Kpop

Kpop -- songs, fashion, and style in general are very western; moves are very calculated much like a robot

Jpop -- in general, they have their unique style which is very Japanese; dances are expressive and never perfect but we see humanity and individuality in the imperfection.

To appreciate Jpop, you have to scrap all your predisposition on what is cool and what is not.

I love Jpop and Kpop.

Arashi - Love so Sweet

*giggles*

Summer time!

Well not here, but in Japan it is! I've been checking a live camera of the Nishima beach in Kanagawa Prefecture and today it really looks like summer has come! With the sun shining brightly and the blue sky on the background, so many people have started crowding the beach.  Some enjoy bathing in the sun while others are surfing. Somehow I feel like I'm invading their privacy because I really can see what they're doing..

Oh well, it just makes me feel good just seeing the sea! Especially during summer. いいね！

Nagbabalik-loob

Pagod lang. Walang panahon upang mag-blog.

Dum-dee-dum

Maybe I really am part of someone's yesterday. It's just unfortunate that someone is so preoccupied of today. Got his hands full of the present therefore no time to look back in the past.

Do you understand?

Better if you did, but it's okay if not.

I don't really care if you remember. You're just as un/important to me as I am to you.

I like playing it fair and square. That leaves me no hard feelings, no grudges to keep.

Am I talking about you? Maybe, maybe not. Or, it can really be you.

Shattered

I'm not good in apologizing because I don't want to do it. Why not? Maybe because I don't want lowering myself for the sake of others. You can call it pride.

So when the time comes that I have to apologize, I can't do it properly. Or maybe, I don't sound convincing at all. Even if I am sincere, it's hard to get the message across.

When they answer, "It's okay," I feel that they don't really mean it. When that happens, the more I dislike apologizing.

Life really does suck.

I want..

..my laptop back.
..my project to finish in a good note.
..to have a long vacation.
..a cool weather without having the rain.

Yoko and I

It was a fun girl talk with Yoko! I had a blast tonight! Thank you!!

Martinelli's Sparkling Cider

I can survive a lifetime with this. It's like having a dose of your favorite soda only made healthier (and a lot more expensive). Love it.

I was bullied

I was 7 years old when I entered 1st grade in elementary school. It's not crystal clear in my memory because I was so young but I can still remember two of my classmates back then -- they are twins. I can NEVER forget them not because of their special condition, but because of the hell they made me went through.

One of the twins, a girl, during exam days, she would threaten me that she will put me to jail through her parents if I won't let her copy my exam papers. As a kid, so young and so naive, those were very strong words. Of course I still don't know I should commit a crime first before I'll be put behind bars. Maybe, what's running through my mind at that time was she really can put me to jail because I know their family is very rich. It scared me, so I didn't have a choice but to let her copy my paper.

It happened not just once, not just twice, but many times. Like me, she made it to the list of students who will take an early exam at the end of the year, which we consider a privilege because only those on top of the class make it. Simply put, I made her grades go up (she's not really smart). At the very last exam week, she still copied on my exam papers. Right now, I'm thinking, I don't know how we made it that a teacher never caught us cheating. I really cannot remember.

Her brother, her twin, also threatened me. Until now, I still cannot share what he made me do.. I still cannot swallow what I did for him.. Even now as a grown-up, I still think what I did back then for him is something very embarrassing and very degrading.. It's an experience I have never shared to anyone. With the same threat of putting me to jail, It left me no choice but to follow him.

Two years ago, I met one of the twins who bullied me. It was a gathering party with my batch mates. She's a very pretty lady, the type that most men would like in just one glance. She came with her boyfriend.  She shared to us (of course without the guy she's with hearing) she has another boyfriend and that the man she's with was just a toy for her. What a crooked attitude for a very pretty-looking girl, I thought. We really didn't talk much because I don't like talking to her. It was just a hi-hello-how-are-you conversation and that's it.

The funny thing is, I really don't hate her now. I didn't have the urge to take revenge. Despite the absence of hatred, I felt uncomfortable when she was around (as for her twin brother, I've never seen him again.) because I still remember what she did to me -- making me worry to death that I'll be jailed when I was still 7. I realized I never held grudge against them. Maybe I've forgiven her and her brother. Probably they didn't know what they were doing to me back then was totally wrong.  I forgave them but I never really forget. It's a cliche but that's just how it is for me. Maybe, I'll just blame it to the innocence of youth.

I've never told my parents I was bullied. Never. Maybe I was really good in hiding it that they never noticed. I shared this with my two best friends, only about the girl bullying me but I still kept the fact that I was also bullied by her twin brother. When they heard about it, they just laughed at me saying I was so stupid back then believing her threats to me. I just laughed with them saying, "I really don't have a choice!" But at the back of my mind, in my heart, I was hurt. Why I don't want to share this to my parents? I can imagine they will react the same way as my best friends did. They'll just laugh at me, saying it's really stupid. It will just hurt me more.

On the surface, it really is stupid. But for me who was bullied, it's something serious no matter how ridiculous the threat was. Maybe, no one else can really understand how I felt at that time but someone who was also a victim of bullies. I don't know. Maybe we have to be on the same boat to feel the same way how waves rock the boat.

What made me write this? I recently watched "Gran Torino" and "青い鳥" (Aoi Tori). Both movies are centered on kids who are victims of bullying. I can relate somehow. Good thing, I'm not suicidal.

**Bullying is not a laughing matter.

Standing at the Edge of the Earth by Blessid Union of Souls

One of my favorites. A fairly old song from Blessid Union of Souls. A very emotional love song but the melody is not at all cheesy. I really love it.

タニザワトモフミ（Tanizawa Tomofumi)

I really love his songs. Listening to him is like having my favorite frozen dessert on a hot Saturday afternoon..

Cebu

Rants

Ah, so we're not friends -- cos I didn't see my name. Fine, then we're not.
**
When will the re-blocking end?
**
It'll be my first time on Friday. I'm worried and excited at the same time.
**
It's all work and no play for me. I wonder when can I go strolling without worrying about my job?

In U.P. (University of the Philippines)..

**'Sablay' (a missed chance or a failure in English) is synonymous to 'tagumpay' (success in English) How? Go ask a U.P. graduate. Congratulations to the graduating batch!!



**Overheard at U.P. Kamon!

Hospital again

I went to the hospital today to have a check-up. I was worried when I felt something strange on my neck (just above my collarbone). I went to talk to a surgeon and had an x-ray. Sigh. The hospital atmosphere was the worst. Good thing I didn't see anyone on a stretcher or anyone who had an arm dangerously dangling nearing a total amputation.

Hope everything's fine.

Rescue by KAT-TUN (Live)

I think it's a tie between Kamenashi and Akanishi when it comes to popularity. And it's no wonder that Ueda's next followed by Nakamaru and Taguchi. I love their dance solos!!

Right Now by KAT-TUN (N.M.P Album)

I've always wanted to see KAT-TUN perform this particular song because it's one of my favorites! This is my newest favorite video! Way to go KAT-TUN!!

Something different

Who says ham, cheese and sweetened coconut don't go well together? They actually do. Add a French toast to that -- the result is the interesting contrast of sweetness and the saltiness of ham. Who would want mayonnaise if you have an alternative. It's delicious! (This was my dinner I was talking about.)

I swear to visit the Church tomorrow

I'm such a big fan of Japan that it weakens me to hear so many people lost their lives in such a natural disaster. Just now, I put all my trust in God's plans for us. Tomorrow I'll go out of my way, wake up early and give the church a visit. For the victims - infants, kids, teenagers, mothers, fathers, grandparents - I pray for their souls to reach heaven. I'm not religious (it's obvious how awkward my sentences are) but I think in times like these, we have nothing to hold on to but to our faith.

Tsunami 101 by National Geographic

Excited!

I think I'm in the right track of my life. I get excited every time a new project comes along! Surprisingly, it's not just the idea of making a living that makes me happy but more of the idea of accomplishing something again. Now I have to design a condo unit in collaboration with my architect boss.. Hope we'll finish this. Let's do this!

It's been a while

Dinner was great - both dishes and the company! Let's do this more often!

These tears are for you..

I miss my cat..
It's just this hour that it sunk in..
Today is the third day he's gone missing..
Maybe he died alone..

Cats are selfish and loving at the same time..
They are selfish because they don't want their masters see them die..
They are loving because of the same reason..
They go as far away as possible when they feel they're about to die..
At the last moment, they don't want their masters see them suffer..
They don't want their masters be hurt by seeing them die..

I wish I could've buried him..

Bye Rookie..
I love you..
These tears are for you..

King of Anything by Sara Bareilles

Keep drinking coffee, stare me down across the table
While I look outside
So many things I’d say if only I were able
But I just keep quiet and count the cars that pass by

You’ve got opinions, man
We’re all entitled to ‘em, but I never asked
So let me thank you for your time, and try not to waste anymore of mine
And get out of here fast

I hate to break it to you babe, but I’m not drowning
There’s no one here to save

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

You sound so innocent, all full of good intent
Swear you know best
But you expect me to jump up on board with you
And ride off into your delusional sunset

I’m not the one who’s lost with no direction
But you’ll never see
You’re so busy making maps with my name on them in all caps
You got the talking down, just not the listening

And who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

All my life I’ve tried to make everybody happy
While I just hurt and hide
Waiting for someone to tell me it’s my turn to decide

Who cares if you disagree?
You are not me
Who made you king of anything?
So you dare tell me who to be?
Who died and made you king of anything?

Let me hold your crown, babe.

It Ends Tonight by The All-American Rejects

"The walls start breathing, my mind's unweaving, maybe it's best you leave me alone. A weight is lifted on this evening. I give the final blow.


When darkness turns to light, it ends tonight, it ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right.
It's too late to fight. It ends tonight. It ends tonight."
                                                                     - The All-American Rejects


No more waiting. No more of you. This is the last. 

I Want You by Kings of Leon

"I want you just exactly like I used to." - Kings of Leon

EDSA

A view of EDSA (and all the places in between) from Ortigas. Pardon the dirty window pane.

Morning

Afternoon -- my favorite part of the day. All colors seemed to be extra bright in the afternoon and I love it.

Sunset -- dramatic isn't it?
















I forgot to take a photo at night.

02252011

Happy Birthday Kei!

To my Kei, happy birthday! I wish you good health and long, meaningful life with your family, a better career ahead! Maybe we can have the slumber party on your next birthday! Haha. And, since it is your birthday and you told me you want to look like Kamenashi, this is my gift for you: a Ray Ban aviator shades.

It looks so cool right? I think color brown is perfect for your fair skin! Kamenashi also wears aviator shades (only with a different color). So if you wear this you'll look like Kamenashi! See?

Happy birthday again!

The man in him

I have a self-confessed gay friend.
He hid himself in his closet from me for almost a decade.
It took a long time before he was certain I'll accept him.
For me, I don't need his confession.
I've known him for so long and nothing will change even if he told me so.

The man in him? Oh yeah. That was the title.
Even if he says he's gay, homosexual, effeminate, however you want to call it, he still is a man to me.

He never fails to open doors for me.
He always let me take a seat before him.
Always he guides me in taking the stairs.
Sometimes he carry my bag for me.
He holds me when we cross the street.
In a crowd he always hover behind me and hold my shoulders.

Yeah, he does it like any straight men do.
And the part I appreciate the most -- he makes me feel like a lady.

Here I go again

I feel..

..sad
..guilty
..pissed
..anxious
..uneasy
..agitated
..confused
..restless
..apologetic
..regretful
..*put another negative word here*

I think I need chocolates.

If You're Gone (Live) by Matchbox 20

"There's an awful lot of breathing room but I can hardly move." - If You're Gone

Japan: The Strange Country by Kenichi (Vimeo)

First seen on vimeo.com created by Kenichi (see http://vimeo.com/kenichi) -- a Japanese describing his country strange. But before people becomes outraged by watching this, take note of what he said at the end part, "Who created this strange country? You did." Simply put, Japan is strange in a perspective of a foreigner. It's just logical to say something is out of the ordinary if it's different from your own culture. But that's somehow like being ethnocentric.

I always say this, Japan really is a strange country but in always a good way. When I say strange, it's unique and full of contrasts. Of course not having been to Japan (yet), I'm saying it based on my various exposures to the Japanese culture -- dominantly through the power of media.

Kenichi purposely created this video from the point of view of a non-Japanese (just an opinion) but strangely enough, some Japanese do agree to what the title says that Japan is strange indeed.

Sometimes I don't want to be happy.

Sometimes I don't want to be happy. But it doesn't mean I want to be sad.

You know how good it feels when you're anticipating something -- getting excited over dinner with friends, going out of town for a 1-week vacation, your boss being absent from work, planning to buy the latest iPod, spending a movie date with your long-time crush, name it. It feels great while waiting for those things to happen. The more exhilarating it feels while it is happening. But after it, what comes next?

After getting giddy waiting for something to happen and getting giddier while on the experience itself, you'll be back to your normal paced life -- normal in a sense you're back to your old routine where not much really happens. And then suddenly you'll realize more how boring your life is.

The happier you got, the lonelier you get after it's over and done.
The higher you flew up, the more painful it is when you fall down.

With those in mind, I really don't like being happy. It makes me get a picture of my very boring lifestyle.

T_T

I usually wake up at half-past 5 but today I woke up quarter to 6 in the morning! Or so I thought.

My eyes automatically locks to the wall clock when I wake up in the morning. Today, as in a few minutes ago, I thought the clock said  it was already quarter to 6. So I rushed to the bathroom to take a bath. After doing my thing, I looked at the clock again and realized that the small hand of the clock is pointing to the number 5! Gah!

I rushed for nothing. That's why, this very early I'm online. A few minutes from now I'll dress up and leave.

T_T

It's a sweet day!

Yes, my Valentine's day was sweet after all! I received a couple of chocolates which is just so great! One was from our engineer, one from my architect boss, one from our sweet lawyer and the last one from her super cute half-Filipino son! These were not a lot definitely but who cares, right?

Happy Valentine's Day!

Takuya-san, Kei, Oyabun, Hiroki-san, Shin-san, Axiu-san happy valentine's day! Here's my thank you chocolate! I actually bought it for valentine's day. You can't eat it but it's the thought that counts. ^_^

Condoms and Valentine's Day

Well what do you know, it's that time of the year again! The big heart's day is here! However you want to interpret it, it's all about love between couples and not so much for singles out there. Yeah, interpret 'love' the way you want it.

Some defines 'love' on V-day as copulating (sounds more formal does it?) that's why some organizations bother distributing condoms for free. According to them, giving out condoms is a precautionary measure to stop the spread of the dreaded AIDS.

Things that came to my mind. 'Huh? (supposed to be dumbstruck) You will use condom because you assume of the possibility that your partner has AIDS? Or you will use condom because you'll have sex with someone you're not sure if s/he has AIDS or not? Maybe someone you just met somewhere, someone like a whore, a pick-up girl? Or you will use condom because you were open to the possibility that your wife/husband/partner had an extra-marital affair that poses the risk of him/her acquiring AIDS? Or maybe you will use condom because you are the on who's not faithful who might have the virus?'

And of course, as always, the Church wants to take part on the 'issue' (which I think is not really to be considered an issue') that opposes this kind of move.

First thing that came to my mind, 'Huh? (supposed to be dumbstruck) The Church doesn't support the prevention of AIDS?'

Okay those thoughts sound ridiculous at some point. I mean, we can never say one side is absolutely correct nor absolutely wrong. I think I understand the stand of both parties.

For those pro-condom use:
What they are pushing is right but what they are implying sounds discouraging. Like what? Either of the couple might have AIDS and they might not be sure about it that's why it will a lot safer to use condoms. What? Ridiculous. Or they're positive one of them has it, but how s/he got it is the question. Getting services from prostitutes? What?

Or it can also imply even if you have AIDS you can still have the worldly pleasures by using condoms. Why not just say, 'If you have AIDS, please try not to engage in sexual activities.' I think that proposal is 100% more effective in fighting the spread of the virus than using condoms.

For those anti-condom use:
I think the Church is not really against the use of condom as prevention to AIDS but to the whole concept of using it. For the Church, it's always the natural way they are depending on. Natural family planning, abstinence, name it. They are relying too much on human nature, or should I say they rely too much on the discipline of Filipino couples. That's tough! They still don't understand that the country's poverty rate and the deterioration of the environment are influenced by overpopulation. It seemed like the Church really doesn't understand the need of the couple in having sex that's why they keep on pushing that it's possible for all to always go for the natural way. Is it because they themselves supposedly don't do it? (Do they?) Someone needs to pour cold water over them.

My stand:
I stand with the use of condom whether it's Valentine's day or not for the reason to avoid unwanted pregnancy. But it doesn't mean I consider it okay to indiscriminately have sex. It still has to be done with your partner, being faithful to only one and also doing it out of love.

To the Church, I don't think using condom means killing life. Condoms are used to hinder, take note, HINDER unwanted pregnancy. Life has not started yet. There's no life to extinguish. There's no life put to an end because nothing has started yet. Especially for poor couples, (who just so happens to be so fertile) it'll help them not produce children more than they can support. That way, less people will suffer because of poverty -- it's more like saving a life in itself. What the Church needs to work hard for is to let couples understand (especially those living in poverty) the consequences of their actions and that it is supposed to be sacred. Good luck with that.

It's not wrong to use condoms but people should still keep in mind that sex is not just a simple pastime, discipline is important -- whether you do it on Valentine's day or not.

No Other by SuperJunior

Before KAT-TUN, there's SuperJunior for me. Ryeowook, define tight pants! Love their dancing! Also I love Eeteuk's smiles. *blush*

Kei's masterpiece II

What makes this piece artistic? You can't see the mouth of the snowman because Kei wants the audience to imagine it themselves. *cough*cough* And I really have a feeling that this snowman is winking at me, don't you think? Don't forget Kei, your promise you'll make a snowman as tall as you! I'll be waiting! You have to do it before winter ends!

How can the Japanese hear it?

The scene:
I am on the hammock at our terrace. My sister is in our living room talking to a woman from Japan through skype. My brother, also in the living room, is watching television.

My brother: (He increased the tv volume)
Me: Hey, lower the volume will you. Can't you see she's (our sister) talking to someone? The Japanese might hear it as noise.
My brother: Huh? How can the Japanese hear it, she's in Japan.

Somehow it made sense. I laughed so hard.

Alisa Bosconovich (Tekken 6)

Probably a secret experiment of Bosconovich not known by Mishima Zaibatsu. Just a guess. If Alisa is with Jin, I wouldn't have him as an opponent, not to mention Alisa's first. She doesn't look like it, (and doesn't sound at all by her name) but she's Japanese, I assume because she speaks Nihonggo. You wouldn't know her strength unless you use her. Again she looks so girly with her lavender/pink outfit or with her short red dress get-up but she's damn strong. Her kicks leave Jin, Kazuya, Azazel and Lars flying through the air. I think she's got one of the best moves especially when it comes to power-loaded kicks. No exaggeration. Using her I defeated Jin, Kazuya, Azazel and Lars in one match each. Never done it before with any other characters.

One thing I don't understand is why she ended up as an ally of Lars. It was never mentioned how it happened but the ending story just got into the part that Lars took her into his care and gave her missions.

Alisa Bosconovich -- my new favorite!

11am by Incubus

7 am
The garbage truck
Beeps as it backs up
And I start my day thinking about
What I’ve thrown away
Could I push rewind? 
All the credits strewn
In signifying the end
But I missed the best part
Could we please go back
To the start? 
Forgive my indecision
Then again, then again, then again
You’re always first when
No one’s on your side but
Then again, then again, then again
The day will come when
I want off that ride

11 am
By now you would think
That I would be up
But my bedsheets shade
The heated choices I made
What did I find? 
I never thought I could want
Someone so much
’cause now you’re not here
And I’m knee deep
In my own fear
Forgive my indecision
I am only a man

Then again, then again, then again
You’re always first when
No one’s on your side but
Then again, then again, again, again, then again
The day will come when
I want off that ride

12 pm and my dusty telephone rings
I get up from my pillow
Could it be? 
I hope it’s you
It’s you, oh

Then again, then again, then again
You’re always first when
No one’s on your side but
Then again, then again, again, again, then again
The day has come and
I want off that ride.

F**k You (Forget You) by Cee Lo Green

Simply put, don't let a good opportunity pass you by. Grab it while it's hot!

Designing yet again

As I thought, I really love designing -- especially when my clients loved my design. Today I met up with my client and liked my presentation (I think) and he invited me to design the condo unit of his 20-year old son. And I'm excited about it! Moving on, the next step is meeting with the engineer. Gotta set-up a meeting now. Keep 'em coming! Keep 'em coming!

Kei's masterpiece

Presenting, Kei's snowman of Aomori! Dated 30th of January 2011. Nice work Kei!

Hug me not

Today, someone hugged me. It was one of the architects we were working with our projects. Yes, he hugged me. Twice. Ugh. And I didn't like it. I know he's like a father to me and I'm a daughter to him. His hugs were supposed to be comforting hugs but it made me feel more awkward. He's a nice man and all but I want my personal space all by myself.

And oh, I didn't hug him back.

I'm sorry I don't want to

I'm sorry I don't want to. Friendship or whatnot I don't want it started. I'm the type who expects too much and gets hurt in the end. I'll leave you in your world and let me live with mine. If ever we started somewhere, let's leave it like that and let's not go any further. I'd rather have it that way. Spare me.

Or maybe I'll change my mind in the future. Nobody knows.
But for now, let it be.

Weary on February

It's the time of the year again. I'm getting a year older! I'm not particularly averse about it but I feel like I'm getting older without the essentials that make life exciting and memorable -- if you know what I mean.

Also February means to most people as the month of hearts. I honestly never think that way ever. Not being bitter or anything but it's really only my birthday that makes this month significant. My officemate asked me if I have plans on the 14th and I was left speechless because her question was a little bit loaded. Sigh. Never mind.

February oh February, please be good to me.
Please make my life a little more exciting.

Migraine by Moonstar88

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I almost forgot the wonder of Filipino music.

Migraine by Moonstar88 is about being lost and confused because of loving from a distance. It's all about getting mixed signals -- more like a mutual understanding gone wrong. It's all about asking if there's still a chance for two people to be together.

The complexities of love make it painful and exciting at the same time.

Angel by Robbie Williams

I think I'm in love, I think

He's like a turtle in a box.

He's happy living in his own world and nobody can change it for him.

Once he made up his mind about something, he won't budge. Not an inch.

He likes saying,

"I don't care."

I told him,

"Try saying, 'I don't mind,' instead."

He just doesn't give a damn about the world.

He just cares about his survival, I think.

I once asked him,

"Are you happy?"

He replied,

"I'm just okay."

"What makes you happy then?"

"A funny joke."

His answers are so simple but it always makes sense.

Don't take me wrong.

He is smart.

We argue a lot.

Or should I say, we debate a lot.

He knows his views.

He is steadfast about it.

Most of the time he gives me new perspectives on certain issues.

I thank him for that.

But not rarely we agree on something.

It's just not common.

I told him,

"You should make new friends!"

He answered,

"No, no, no, no, no."

"Why not? Oh yeah, you're not friendly. I get it."

It's wrong but I always try to change him.

He's a good sport.

He accepts criticisms like I do.

He puts up a tough front.

I know he still has a soft spot.

Or should I say I'm hoping there is.

Sometimes I think his weakness created his armor.

I know there are so many things he's still hiding.

Especially his frustrations.

In spite of it all, I like him.

I honestly like him.

I think I told him I like him.

I just want to be there for him.

That's why I'm waiting.

I will wait for I don't know how long.

I miss you!

Sunday afternoon

I really love the weather today! The sun is shining, the wind is blowing and the sky is glowing blue! I was supposed to take a photo of the wonderful ambience outside turns out my sister brought the camera with her. *grunts* Still, I love this afternoon weather! It makes me want to just have my siesta.. Hmmm..*drooping eyes*

I'm in doldrums.

I'm in doldrums. I think I am. *very deep sigh*

To quit or not to quit? Part II

I have another reason to think twice in continuing my part-time. There's no exclusivity anymore. I don't mean anything bad but I just lost the appetite I used to have. Sukoshi. Only Takuya-san keeps me holding on! Yeah! *smiles*

Back to the usual

Therefore I conclude, I can't stay away from doing this. Fine. I don't think I have to torture myself with abstinence. It's just ridiculous. What has transpired I cannot re-do. Just next I'll be extra careful in talking. Talk about the power of words! Like I always say, I'm not a difficult person. I only mirror you.

Kamenashi so Gay

Kamenashi, you give me the creeps when you dance like this! But I still think you're adorable and a real entertainer. While watching this I was almost shock when you were half-naked (maybe because all along you sexy-danced like a woman).But you really looked so damn manly with the samurai, the sweaty-look and your lipstick-stained cheeks! Kamenashi is so gay and I love it!

Idle

I'll avoid blogging for now because I'm trying to avoid someone. I hope I can keep up with this.

Please kill me now

I am a bad person.
I know I am because I know myself.

I lied to my parents when I was in 4th year high school.
I hurt my dog when he tries to steal our cat's food.
I sometimes don't share my psp with my brother.
I cheated in my Physics class.
I did not attend my grandfather's funeral.
I do not greet my friends happy birthday.
I complain a lot in my part-time job.
I am lazy in helping at home.
I am sometimes late at work.
I use my sister's clothes without permission.

I know when to be bad, and when to do good.

You can hate me now, now that you know.

If you don't like me as a friend, I understand.
If you don't want to talk to me anymore, I understand.
If you think I'm pure evil, I understand.

Right now, I am disgusted with myself.
I feel embarrassed with myself.
I want to bury myself deep on earth.
I want to drown myself into the ocean.
I want to throw myself into a hungry lion's den.
I want to stay inside my shell forever.
It's all because of a misunderstanding.

Just when I want to make someone happy, I offended him.
Just when I want to make him feel good, I made him feel bad.
Just when I want to comfort him, I made him feel awkward.
Just when I was trying to be a good person, he saw me as a bad person.

I'm hurt because I failed him.
I'm hurt because I failed him.
I'm hurt because I failed him.
I'm in pain because I am misunderstood.

Please kill me now.