No More Pain by KaT-TUN

University of Philippines on top again!

One thing is for sure, aside from our family and friends, UP pride is equally one of the strongest driving force for us to make the cut. We did it for our well-loved university. UP Fight!

I passed the 2010 Interior Design board exam!

Roll of Successful Examinees in the INTERIOR DESIGN LICENSURE EXAMINATION
Held on SEPTEMBER 29, 2010 & FF. DAYS Page: 2 of 4
Released on OCTOBER 13, 2010

1 ABINAL, MARY JOYCE LOMIBAO
2 ADRIANO, LAURICE JIMENEZ
3 ALTUNA, KIMBERLY DANIELLE PUENTEBELLA
4 AMPER, JAN-IBEN PRIMACIO
5 ANTONIO, KAROL ANN PEDROSO
6 ARAZA, ELAINE KRYSTEL TRIA
7 ARBOLEDA, CANDICE MEDINA
8 ARCILLA, CRISETTE EVELYN BALTAZAR
9 ASUNCION, MARTHA ANNE DIAZ DE RIVERA
10 BACANI, ANNA CLARISSA HERNANDEZ
11 BELLEZA, KATRINA KIMBERLY CASQUEJO
12 BRASILEÑO, LYNNE INOCENCIO
13 BRION, JAN BRIAN SACAY
14 BUENAFE, BIANCA GARCIA
15 BUYAWE, DIVINE GUIMBATAN
16 CABATAC, RAQUEL ANGELIQUE MORENA
17 CAMUA, MA CARMINA SANTIAGO
18 CANDAZA, REMA PLAZA
19 CAPISTRANO, JOANNA MARIE AVENDAÑO
20 CAPUNO, NIÑA BHERNADETTE ALCAZAR
21 CARANDANG, KRYZTLE VERONICA CORDERO
22 CASTRO, JOHN PAOLO CONSTANTINO
23 CHAM, FRANCES ELAINE TIU
24 CIRERA, PATRICIA CAMILLE RIBO
25 CLARINO, MARIA MONICA NODA
26 CO, JACQUELINE TAN
27 CO, LICELLE YANG
28 COLMO, MAILA ANZON
29 CONCEPCION, KAREN ANN MONTANO
30 CORTEJOS, SARAH GRACE ZAPATOS
31 CRUZ, ANGELO EMMANUEL DAMIAN
32 DAYON, KATHLEEN MAE ONG
33 DE GUZMAN, FRANCES KIM TIZON
34 DEL MUNDO, ANGELO VENCI SARMIENTO
35 DELA FUENTE, KATHERYN ROSS BUZETA
36 DIMSON, CAMILLE SAN LUIS
37 DOMINGO, MA FERMINA BAUTISTA
38 DORADO, GLENNERY ANNE AGUIHAP
39 DUMA, PAMELA MARIE AKIA
40 DUMALAOG, MELISA VICENCIO
41 ESTACIO, ACELINE GRAZIEL MANALASTAS
42 ESTUR, JAMES ANDREW LUNA
43 EUSEBIO, KZAR ALFEL CHAN
44 FERNANDEZ, JAIME JR TAGUINOD
45 FIGUEROA, ANNA MARGARITA MANARANG
46 FLORES, KARL ALEN MARAMBA
47 FRANCISCO, LARRY JAMES VERGA
48 GALLARDO, CHERRIE ROSE GLORIOSO
49 GARCIA, CARELL ANNE ROSE DICTAAN
50 GIMAO, MARY GRACE FERRERAS
Roll of Successful Examinees in the
INTERIOR DESIGN LICENSURE EXAMINATION
Held on SEPTEMBER 29, 2010 & FF. DAYS Page: 3 of 4
Released on OCTOBER 13, 2010
Seq. No. N a m e
51 GO, CAREN JADE DY MIRANDA
52 GO, SHEENA LYN MALICAY
53 GOMEZ, ELOISA CONSUELO RODRIGUEZ
54 GOMEZ, JEREMIAH BOLAÑOS
55 GUEVARRA, AYLA MARIE MAE TABORA
56 GUNDAY, EPHRAIM VALLES
57 JUNTEREAL, LEIA IRINA PEREGRINA
58 LEE, JANET LO
59 LEE, REGINE BEATRICE GOW
60 LIM, FREIDA DIANE LEE
61 LIM, LIANNE STEFFI SY
62 LIM, LYN COBAR
63 LIWANAG, MARIANNE GUINTO
64 LO, JOY CELENE SY
65 LOO, CARLA TRICIA TY
66 LOPEZ, MA KATRINA CAGUINGIN
67 LUCAS, CHARLENE JOYCE CENTENO
68 LUISTRO, RENELEE APOLONIO
69 LUMELAY, JOHN ROMEO TALIPING
70 MADAMBA, DAGNY MICHAELA LIMPOCO
71 MANINGAS, MARIA PAMELA MENDIOLA
72 MANTUHAC, RYAN JAMES CABALUNA
73 MANUEL, KATHARINE MARGARET LOZARE
74 MARAMAG, ATHENA BAQUERO
75 MARCOS, MARK DONIEGO
76 MARQUEZ, EPIPHANY TANGKEKO
77 MASADO, TRICIA GRACE ALAVA
78 MIRAZOL, JAMIE ANDREA DALIDA
79 MITRA, JOANNE GRACE SILVERIO
80 MONTECILLO, ELENA CLARISSE ENRIQUEZ
81 NGO, JOY MERRYL DARANCIANG
82 OLONDRIZ, ANGELINA ROSA FRANCISCO
83 ONG, DIANNE DANICA GABRENTINA
84 ORENSE, KRISTINE JOY FRANCO
85 PAGLICAUAN, CHARINE MAE LADRA
86 PANTIG, TERWIN IVY MARCELO
87 PECKSON, MARIA KRISTEN PERFECTO
88 PEREIRA, MARIANNE IVAN LOPEZ
89 PEREZ, MARK STEVEN MENDOZA
90 PEREZ, RHEA JOY POQUIZ
91 PRATS, MA REGINA SANTOS
92 RADAN, MA CLARINDA DELA CRUZ
93 RALLETA, JADELINE RAMOS
94 RAMOS, CARINES ANGELINE PAGTAKHAN
95 RAYMUNDO, KRIZZIA MAE EBAITE
96 RESTITUTO, NICOLE ALESSANDRA LOPEZ
97 REYES, CLARISSE ANNE MALVAR
98 REYES, RIA KAREN VELASCO
99 REÑON, MARIA CHRISTINA SOBENG
100 RIVERA, IRENE LANDAYAN
Roll of Successful Examinees in the
INTERIOR DESIGN LICENSURE EXAMINATION
Held on SEPTEMBER 29, 2010 & FF. DAYS Page: 4 of 4
Released on OCTOBER 13, 2010
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101 RONQUILLO, CLAUBELLE DICOLEN
102 SAGARBARRIA, ANNA CHRISTINA BORJA
103 SAJONAS, JASON REYES
104 SAMSON, MARIA REGINA PANLILIO
105 SANTIAGO, KATHRINA DIANNE CUEBILLAS
106 SANTOS, MARY GRACE GENOVEA
107 SAYO, PAOLO JUAN CRUZ
108 SENA, MIZRAIME ANNE BALBUENA
109 SORRONDA, DANE NESTLE MANTE
110 TAN, BARBY ANN LIM
111 TAN, FATIMA BIANCA TANG
112 TAN, JOANNA ROSE NG
113 TAN, KRISTINE MARIE DE GUIA
114 TAN, SHEILA LYNN CHOI
115 TANTONGCO, CHRISTINE NG
116 TEH, JORDANA JANICE SY
117 TING, KATHLEEN CAMILLE TAN
118 TIRTHDAS, ANDREA ANN TANQUINTIC
119 TOPICO, MARIE STEPHANIE DELA CRUZ
120 TUDAS, LEA LYSA RODIS
121 TUPAZ, KAREN TORRICO
122 UBALDO, ORPHELLE LIZZA MARTINEZ
123 VALENCIA, LORENZO III QUIMSON
124 VALONDO, CHARLENE MARGUERITE LAMBERTE
125 VERGARA, JODY ANN ASUNCION
126 VILLAMAR, MA KARENINA IMMACULATA CANGCO
127 VILLANUEVA, CLARICE RAMIREZ
128 VILLANUEVA, MARIANNE RAMOS
129 VILLAROSA, VERA NADINE SURQUIA
130 VILLENA, JOANNA ARENAS
131 VISTRO, MARIE GENEVIEVE LUZETTE BALBIN
NOTHING FOLLOWS----------------------



**Jesus, you really love me so much! Thank you!**

Define LONG WEEK

The first entire week of October was the most dragging week this year so far.
I don't know.
Maybe because I'm waiting for the exam results and lots of things has changed.
I've been missing so many people, meeting new ones but it was just a hi-hello-bye-conversations.
I feel so empty, like a coconut fruit still whole but without the juice or a very light pingpong ball -- it eagerly bounces here and there like crazy but it's actually just air-filled, no substance at all.
Sigh.
And the looming dark sky ahead brought by the exam results, it really pulls me down to hell, like I wanna bury myself and never rise again.

Accompany all those worries with the change of lifestyle I'm bound to take.
I have to take things seriously now.
My freedom is nowhere to be found.
I have to pick myself up, put myself together and make my own goals.
Sigh.
Happy-go-lucky-teenage lifestyle, farewell.
Adulthood, here I come.

October, please be good to me.

Wakaranai

I don't know if they're being true to me or not. I don't know if they really are friendly or they're just trying to put up a good front. I should just brush it off but I can't because I am true to myself when i talk. That part sucks. Again, as he told me, it's just they treat this as formal business but not as a venue to be friendly and chummy with people. As I thought, it's all my fault.

Brielle by Sky Sailing

Last Night

It's just flattering to know that some people are worrying that I worry about them. Some might take it as being too presumptuous. I take it as a confirmation that they somehow feel how I feel about them. Thanks for the message!

Nasaan ka?

I waited. And waited some more. Wah. My day felt incomplete. Too much dependence.

Cloudy October

*Just finished my board exam. I'm not happy about it. Almost half of the Materials subject I guessed. Not a very clever thing to do. I messed up with my full-scale drawing. Just because of that 1 effin missing inch I screwed up. Right now I have a heavy heart. If it weren't for Mama and Papa plus all the expecting eyes on me, failure will be bearable. I don't want to disappoint them. I just hope the results won't come. Maybe a big fire can destroy our exam papers so we can do it all again. I'm dreading next week. I don't want it near. My heart, I can't hear my breathing.

*No matter how frustrated I was after the exams, I was genuinely happy. I was able to catch up with two of my favorite people. Still it can't mask this sinking feeling. Happiness is just a phase. It'll pass any time soon.

*This coming Monday I'll have to wear a corporate attire --read: corporate-- I don't know what that means but I have to. It's for my job application. It's long overdue, It's about time. Though I don't really like the job description, I'll give it a shot.

*I used to think I don't like people telling me 'Good luck'. For one, simple reason -- I don't have it. Not a minute bottle of luck I was able to catch. But right now, at this very moment until I don't know when, I need all the luck I can get. The board was over. There's nothing I can do now but wait and wish for lady luck to side me this time. Not that I believe I can be lucky, I can still try to hope.

*I'm in rock bottom now. Anyone up there who can give me a hand?

On the Side of me - Corrinne May

I'm not the easiest person to love 
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved 

Yet you choose to be 
On the side of me 
On the side of me 
Yet you choose to be on the side of me 
On the side of me 

I'm not too proud of some things 
I've done in my life 
The skeletons in my closet 
Are too big for me to hide 

Yet you choose to be 
On the side of me 
On the side of me 
Blessed Charity 
You're on the side of me 
On the side of me 

'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold 
When it's cold outside 
And there's no place to go 
Everyone needs a friend to hold 
All alone I cried 
There was no place to go 
I remember when nobody cared 
But you 

I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth

'Cause you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me
What a mystery
You're on the side of me
On the side of me

'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
When it's cold outside
And there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
All alone I cried
There was no place to go

I remember when nobody cared
I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But you...

Yeah you choose to be
On the side of me
On the side of me

**I wish someday someone can dedicate this song for me.

My First Job Interview Part 1

It was a such a short notice. I was on my way home approximately 6:30pm Thursday, just after my last mock board exam day from my university, that Mama called me (which I missed). I was worried that something must have come up. Usually Mama would just send me a text message than a call. So as I reached home I asked her what's with the immediate call about. She said the company I applied for sent her a text message (I wrote her mobile number as my contact number because I didn't have my phone back then due to some unfortunate event while on the train) 4:30 that afternoon saying I have a scheduled exam and interview the next day at 8:30 am. Upon hearing it, my head was reeling.

What should I do? Should I go? But I promised my previous employer I'll return to the firm right after the board exam. Which should I choose? These questions instantly filled my mind. But Mama was dead decided that I should go for the interview. I thought, yeah, why not? I mean there's no assurance I'll be accepted. So I risked it.

There's not much preparations to be done except from 'beautifying' my CV. Argh. I hate doing it. I've added my 'achievements' for the past year with my 'job experiences'. As I was doing it I was thinking I wonder if employers really get fooled with these kinds of writings. I mean a well-composed CV can look good even without much achievements. Sigh. No matter how averse I was in the thought of doing it I still finished it. I even added my photo. Eew. Photos? For real?? I wouldn't have put it if they hadn't required it. I had my T.O.R. and portfolio laid on the table so I'll just pick them up for the next day. I asked my friend the favor of printing my CV who's also in for the interview.

Then came 'the day'. I woke up around 4:30 am though I still lingered on the sofa for a while before doing my thing. As I was about to leave I realized I wasn't prepared for the interview. What if they asked me why did I apply for their company? What do I know about them? What am I expecting when I am given the chance to work with them? Why would they accept me? Crap. Crap. Crap. I was just unprepared for the event. I thought I can still browse through the internet to know about their condominiums and their other ventured businesses. (The company is REALLY big). Even if I felt like a samurai without his katana or an archer without his bow and arrow I still pursued the interview. I abandoned the idea of researching the internet because doing so will make me late. I don't want to make a bad impression. I just asked Mama to research for me then text me some information about the company right away. I left the house around 6am.

Ah. This is too long. I'll just chop it up in parts. The juicy details for the next entry.

Kizuna - Kamenashi Kazuya

The most decent video I saw of this song though he only sang a part of it. Kamenashi Kazuya -- what can I say? I'm melting! Currently my eye candy, neither his voice and acting is superb but who cares? I so like him! As for the English translation, I'm still on it. I want the most believable translation. Though in one of the videos i saw kizuna is something like a bond. Maybe of friendship? Yeah maybe that's why this song is an OST of Gokusen. Kamenashi Kazuya -- you're so *out of words*! Someone to stalk, I mean to look out for. *dreamy eyes*

I want to..

I want to drive along a tree-lined road at twilight when the sky is navy blue and pink at the same time while listening to an acoustic playlist. That will be so wonderful. *dreamy eyes* The only thing that can make it better is having someone I love beside me while I'm at it. *dreamier eyes*

Confused

I should be happy. I know I should be. I got what I want. She's now back with her usual favorite. I'm glad for her. I should be delighted, ecstatic, elated, gleeful, put-a-synonymous-word-for-happy-here for myself because that's just what I've been wanting to happen the whole week. Then why this heavy feeling putting me down?

Maybe he's right. I have been mean to her. Well, what did I do really? I was my usual self - I was polite, I repeated my words when I was not understood, I tried to bring up a cheerful atmosphere, I asked her with all genuine interest how was she or what did she do,  gave her follow-up questions, added information I assume she might not be familiar with, I was never late and I even talked to her more than the usual time.

I admit, there were many things I've been holding back during those times. Like I was not at my prime (haha. Really now.) Maybe during the first and the second time I was but the succeeding I wasn't. She's actually good and I know she can catch up pretty well so I stepped it up a little bit for her. Did I? Okay maybe I did it with a different intention in mind and that makes me feel guilty.

Am I supposed to be happy because someone finally appreciated me? I mean, I assume she chose me  for a good reason, aside from the convenience I sort of offered. Maybe it was a sign I'm not unlikable like I thought I am. Maybe. Probably. Then why did I try to push her away even she herself is a very nice and wonderful lady? She made me happy, that's a given but at the same time she gave me a reason to be sad. Conflicts, conflicts, conflicts of interest. And if I had to choose I don't have to think twice. But do I really have to choose?

Do I really have to choose? Answering that is irrelevant because I already had chosen. With that decision I'm digging my own grave. I'm giving myself an obsession that sooner or later I have to give up. The longer I stick to it the harder it will be for me to give it up. The harder it will be for me to give it up the more I'll break into tiny pieces once I reach the end of the line.

Going back to my dilemma, what's with this drowning feeling? I know for sure I lost a wonderful person because of my unreasonable behavior. Maybe unconsciously I'm enjoying my time with her. It was just I was blinded by the sadness that surfaces every time.I have been unfair, partial, cruel, biased, put-a-word-synonymous-to-unfair-here to her.

Again, I am supposed to be happy but i'm not.

My favorite

I know I shouldn't play favorites but it's impossible not to. I mean it's like asking a pastry chef just to settle with an all-purpose flour than go looking for flour cake for a wedding cake or a designer opting for a ceramic tile finish than a granite for a counter in a P200,000-worth project. It's just plain hard.

What does favorite mean anyway? It can be a person, a thing, an event, an animal, an emotion, a condition, a fill-in-a-word-here that

• makes you feel damn happy.
• you'd choose above and over so many things in just a blink of an eye
• you consider significant in your life
• you're willing to sacrifice for 
• you want to keep for yourself, never mind sharing
• you're willing to work hard for
• can make you change your values if necessary
• can control you sometimes in ways more than one
• can drown you in misery if you don't have it

It sounded more like an addiction than just favoritism! But that's how I see it.

Especially having a special person, it's really a pathetic condition to be in. It's like putting your source happiness in just a sole person. The euphoria you get when you have him is the same degree of depression you'll fall into if you didn't have him. Not knowing how to control your emotions can make you go berserk. Oooh. It really sound like an addiction. But then again, control. Or better yet, try to diversify the source of your happiness so you'll have some back-up that'll cheer you up when you don't have one. Still, it's impossible not to point out your most favorite among the list of your favorites. Such a complicated thing, The hierarchy goes on and on.

So to my favorite people, don't worry, I don't bite. Thank you for making me happy. I hope you can make it everyday.*smile* And for the times you made me sad for not having you, it's okay, I deal with it like a sane person. I think. A simple hi can elevate me from depression. It won't hurt, will it?

Hey, this really sounds like an addiction.

Addicted

I'm not mean though I can be if I want to and if the situation calls. I have a heart though I try to hide it from people because some might see it as a sign of weakness. I don't easily like people nor trust them. But once I did, it'll be like an alcoholic to a beer.

Trouble Sleeping - Corinne Bailey Rae

 
It's late and I'm feeling so tired
Having trouble sleeping
This constant compromise
Between thinking and breathing

Could it be I'm suffering
Because I'll never give in
Won't say that I'm falling in love

Please, please, tell me
I don't see myself
Couldn't I blame something else
No, don't say, yeah
Don't say I'm falling in love

Some kind of therapy is all I need
Please believe me
Some instant remedy
That can cure me completely

Could it be I'm suffering
Because I'll never give in
Won't say that I'm falling in love

Please, please, tell me
I don't see myself
Couldn't I blame something else
No, don't say, yeah
Please don't say I'm falling in love

'Cause I've been there before
And it's not enough
So nobody say it

Don't even say it
I've got my eyes shut
Oh, no, oh, no, not enough

Could it be I'm suffering
Because I'll never give in
Won't say that I'm falling in love

Please, please, tell me
I don't see myself
Couldn't I blame something else
No, don't say, yeah
Please don't say I'm falling in love

Don't say that I'm falling in love
Don't say that I'm falling in love
Don't say that I'm falling in love
Don't say that I'm falling in love

Couldn't I blame something else
Falling in love

Don't say, don't say
Don't say, don't say
Falling in love

Don't say that I'm falling in love
Don't say that I'm falling in love
Don't say that I'm falling in love
Don't say that I'm falling in love
Don't say that I'm falling in love

It's the time of the month

If you know what I mean. It's totally distracting. Wasn't able to review because of it. Well, yeah I watched half-day my new addiction but I had the perfect atmosphere this afternoon and it ruined it. Now it's flaring up again. Can it be the reason I've been emotional these past few days? Hormonal roller coaster? Can it be? Could it be? Wah. I'm hoping I'm wrong. Still this throbbing feeling is bothering me, BIG TIME.

Assumptions and Pretentions

Yes, these two are a bad combination. But I think, I'm doing it unconsciously because I'll avoid it if I know it'll be painful in the end. Sigh! And this is not about love. Hmm, yes, love but not the romantic kind. And yes I miss you even if I know you don't feel the same. Que sera sera.

Call it over-reacting I don't care.

Call it over-reacting I don't care.

I saw in passing a video in the news showing a Bosnian lady throwing two black puppies to the river. I cried. She really should be punished. She doesn't have soul. How could she do it? The puppies are innocent. She could have given it to a shelter. I hate animal cruelty. I hate people who are cruel to animals.